The Dr.'s appointment at the beginning of January went well. Dr. Dameck has me working my way off of steroids VERY slowly, half a mg a week which is totally fine with me coming off of it so slowly. I have a lot going on over the next month and I want to make sure I have the energy to do it all along with making sure I don't have any relapses in headaches. If the headaches come it just knocks me out and then it is hard for me to concentrate and get anything done.
My next MRI, doctors appointment and infusion is scheduled for the 1st of February.
My infusions are going well. Ingrid is my all time favorite infusionista! I always ask for her when I come in. She can get my veins the very first time by using her floating technique. She is probably close to me in age and is from Montana we always just spend some time chatting about life. She is so sweet! All of the people in the infusion center are great. They make it a point to know you and do anything they can to help you out. I am so encouraged by them every time I go in.
Things with insurance is finally getting all worked out!!! The insurance company now has my claim form and as for this next semester I am all signed up for I got my referrals in and my claim form is signed!
Orals:
I'm getting kinda stressed over orals. I'm not quite done with my paper or presentation but am getting awfully close. It needs to be done though! I need to start practicing my talk and making sure I know the things I need to know when they drill me for two and a half hours with questions :/ I think the question part of it is what is freaking me out the most. I can handle the paper and presentation I am just to the point in those areas of having to do my least favorite part of it so it is hard to stay focused on it and keep from getting frustrated when it isn't coming along so well. Also I know that I can be a perfectionist and so every time I go through my paper and presentation I know there is so much more I could add but I really should have someone else look at it. There is just so much I feel like I need to know before I do my orals that it gets over whelming and I don't know how I'm going to every get it all done. But some how I will and if I fail I still have another chance to do them again.
Other things in life:
The more stressed out I get it seems the more time I spend with God. I am currently reading the Bible through in a year and I treasure this time with God. The past few days have been about Joseph in Egypt. It is amazing how God used Josephs brothers jealousy to bring about their salvation and it reminds me that although I am going through this difficult time how God can use it for his purposes. Also how Joseph was put in jail for a 'crime' he didn't commit. I don't know what those purposes are but I desire to be His instrument even if it means through even tougher situations. I know that there will be seasons in my life that will be more difficult than the ones I am enduring now, there is so much left for Him to teach me about so many different things in life. I want Him to ever be molding and changing my heart to be more like His and that is not going to be an easy process.
My house is clean! I was accepted for cleaning for a reason. It is a volunteer service given to women with cancer. What happens is a cleaning company volunteers their services and comes in and cleans your house for you once a month for a specified amount of time. I hate to admit this but since I have lived in my house I have not vacuumed the downstairs part of my house. I have been able to keep the main area fairly clean and I keep the downstairs clean but as for doing the things I would normally do every week (vacuuming, dusting, cleaning the bathroom etc) it just does not get done on a regular basis ever and there just didn't seem like there was going to be a time in the near or even not so near future that it was going to be happening. So I finally broke down and applied for the service and let me tell you, it is so so so so SO nice to have a clean house!!!
